With this whole chapter being about learning it got me thinking about something. How come it is that I have learned how to stand up in front of a judge for forensics and not be the least bit scared. But when I have to get up in front of my church and read the lessons I become extremely nervous.
I had to read in church today, and the whole time I was up there I was shaking, messing up my words and read though both lessons very quickly. But I can stand up in front of a room full of people I don't know and a judge on top of it and not have any nerves ever. Once I stopped and thought about it a little more, I'm pretty sure it has something to with the fact that the people in church are kind of like a forensics judge, but they are judging me on much more then just the set things that a forensics judge would be. And I'm pretty sure that not knowing quite what people are judging me on is what makes me so scared.
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This makes alot of sense. I think you have it right in saying that you are scared because you don't know what pple are thinking. Whether its she can't read well, she is a good reader, or even something completely off topic. It's the unknown the brings about edgyness.
ReplyDeletei agree! Up in front of your church your more vulnerable and don't really know what is going through everyones head weather its good or bad and that uncertainty just plays with your mind. If your fine in front of that judge just take a deep breath in front of the church!
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